Sometimes I forget to remember you, here's my reminder.

Eminem's "Stan" can put you in the right mood for this one.

I'm having a hard time remembering the better days

I think we laughed and used to play.

You gave me my nickname it sounds so damn silly to me.

I wish I knew what it meant to you, problem is my memory's grey.

Remember what I said to you that fateful day

Man I'll never forget its what kept my life at bay.

It was something like "can I come with you mom"

to which you replied "no son, just not today"

They say you know when your day has come

I always wonder if that was true with you.

If that was the case I hope we enjoyed that day

Cause from there on out my skies were grey.

And then you gone and left, simply leaving your ashes behind.

Your departure blazed a trail for my life, creating a destiny in my mind.

But I promise I'm not mad, i'll never ever blame you.

Because through the fire forged a man of worldly love & stronger virtue.

I gotta tell you that my grade 2 days just weren't that bright

Spending those dark days of my youth at sunnybrook.

I think I talked to you everyday, conversations just didn't feel right.

Cause whenever I would come around you kept giving me that blank look.

Were you still there when I held your hand?

Did you get a chance to feel that bear I brought?

Will you ever know about the pain that wrought the man you see today?

So suddenly they took me away, what was going on they wouldn't say.

It was only a week later I found out about the decision made.

The truth became apparent seeing all your faces in complete dismay.

Just like it was taken outta Revelations, it felt like the end of days.

Don't judge me cause I was angry and resourceful.

I didn't know who to blame.

So I felt like I should be the hand of god.

Reciprocate and do the same.

So I had him all found out, this shit was perfectly planned.

And then I realized that all this shit was pretty fucked up.

Kinda like that shit I heard in Stan.

I decided to grow up Mom and be a better man.

To embark on a journey of without judgement it was anger I would disband.

There was no one I could blame; not you, me or him.

Because events like this build character and I wanna fill it to the brim.

Many questions left unanswered, many lessons left untaught.

But maybe thats what makes me the fabled "man of the future"

Missing the nurture of nature letting me be open to my entourage of tutors.

Because without you guys around me, my friends, family and supporters.

I'd probably still be that guy wasting his life away burning...